I did what I could to help, what others allowed me to do. Maybe I made a positive difference . . . that is my hope.

I'm still working through this. Grieving? .....

As best as I could. Conversation is difficult. We share/exchange kind words, thoughts, smiles, a kiss on forehead/cheek.

So much anger, pain, frustration, and resentment! Why do so many people seek to control and manipulate each other, to slander and belittle, to harm and cause pain? If listening helps .... I hope it did....

"I own this, and I own that, and I control 2,000 employees, and I want you out of this house immediately!" Making midnight calls to berate, abuse, and condemn!

God be kind and merciful.

Just let it go! Let it flow over, through, and past me! Please, God, heal their anger!

I only thought I was a father, a parent. For so many years, trying to love, to care . . . all is vanity! The past . . . is the past!

God, you pardoned my mistakes, my sins. Help me to forgive others.

God forgive those who attack, assault, and seek vengeance! Purgatory and hell are now no strangers to me. I pray this was only a brief visit....

Thank you, God, for a few peaceful, serene, and blessed days at Cedar Island! With your servants, with coastal beauty, with unblemished nature!

Thank you, God, for the grace of friends who chose me as their friends! Who gave me shelter, a shared meal, a feeling of family, enjoyable conversation and friendship!

A simple love of caring and friendship between two souls .... beyond time and distance, in spite of marriage, divorce, hardships. Oh, God, how you humble me!

Perhaps it is simple vanity. If only one person visits . . . finds comfort, solace, understanding, peace . . . then, it is not!

Moments of fun, diversion, reading another Clive Cussler novel.

Moments of spiritual renewal and comfort, reading from Sirach and Wisdom...

Seeking to do as Brother Lawrence suggests . . . Practicing the presence of God. Oh, God, only you know if I succeed....